Here is something I am struggling with. Struggling in the sense of wondering “is this ok or not”.
The spankings my wife gives me are anything but sexual. They are not foreplay spankings, in fact, we do not have sex on the same day I have been spanked just to make sure no lines get blurred.
To be honest, when she is paddling me or spanking me, I do not get aroused at all. There truly are no sexual undertones at all.
That being said, I find myself the next day, or day after that, masturbating as I remember the spanking or paddling she just gave me. I guess not only that on, but I often think about others spanking as well. Remembering the differences of them, the similarities, the feelings I experienced during each of them etc.
I don’t know if I should tell her I am doing this. I don’t know if it is a violation of expectation of any sort. Maybe it is normal and ok? I just don’t know.
All I do know is the sense of guilt I have while I masturbate and after I have.
Bottoms should be spanked Hand,, paddled,, switched for misbehaving, disobedience, Attitude,, lies, Breaking of curfew times.. Greater respect to the disciplinarian
Miss Mossie,
I do agree with you. He doesn’t seem to update the blog often, but I am sure he deserves a good paddling.
I plan on doing a lot better updating this blog. Life has been a bit hectic lately, but settled down now and I plan of putting a lot more effort into this.
As a naughty child you got away with a lot,, never caught, you were scared though Mom would catch you, then as happened you were caught your bottom knew for days.. facing the wall beside the TV your brothers and sisters behaving, being good not wanting the slipper, belt, Switches freshly cut,, now is exactly the same,, if she finds out you haven’t told her, you know the rest
I think your wife needs to know. You asked for this situation and if she is trying to maintain discipline she should tell you if it is OK. I think you are clearly crossing the line but it’s her call.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on this, you are probably right. I am just too chicken to tell her.
I hate to put it this way, but I think you are obligated to tell her. I am sure that you will get your ass royally paddled if she considers this a violation of your agreement. If it is, then you have it coming and you need to accept the likely punishment.
After all, what is the point of agreeing to an FLR with her setting the rules if you are not willing to admit when you have done something that deserves her attention? Besides if she finds this blog entry she will find out and I pity what your ass will get for it.
I must agree you need to be open to your wife about what you are feeling and doing. On each of are birthdays we sit down and eat cake and have an open talk.
I believe that she should know about this, and decide for you whether it is acceptable or not. In our house, his masterbation is not allowed unless I’m directing it. So transparency is the best course of action for you. On my humble opinion.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I know you are correct, I knew it before even posting about it, but just hard to bring myself to admit.